Episode 14 - What an Idiot. Really.

[lorii .]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Thats me screaming because I am a complete dumbass. I love Ash Allan And Payne, but seriously, I think I fucked my game over friendship. I should have forced a tie. I should have tried to get Payne out. Like how the hell am I going to win over the 3 A's? I am actually pissed at myself.
Me voting Josh out was by far my biggest mistake. Now I have to conduct a plan with the four people remaining, and I really don't believe I can beat one of them. Ugh, I cant even write no more. What a tool. Fuck.

[lorii .]

- How does it feel to make it this far? Explain.
It feels great to make it to the F5, but I think I have screwed over my chances at making it to the end, and even if I do make it to the end I will loose. Friendship has clouded my vision, and in the end I think it will lead me to my demise. So yes, JOSH you we're completely right. I should have went with you and Steph.

- Looking back, what do you feel was the best move you made in the game? Explain.
Best move, and yall are going to think different, was indeed hooking up with Ashley Allan and Andrew. If I never made a deal with them, I would have come into merge with out numbers. So yes, thats my best move.

- Out of the other 4 players, who do you feel you can beat in the finals and why?
Stephaine, because she came into the game late, therefore almost had a free ride to merge. I dont no if I can beat any of them. fuck, i am soo diccouraged.

- Who is your biggest competition? Explain.
The 3 As.. basically the jury has already told me I better be able to pull something out of my hate to win them over instead of the As

- Who is your target this round?
ANDREW !!!!!!!!! No joke. I will vote for him on my own.

- If you were voted out next....(fill in with whatever comes to mind)


- Add other thoughts!!!

[lorii .]

- If you were voted out next....(fill in with whatever comes to mind)
I would say I was the biggest idiot in Isurv1vor. Seriously, I may be wasted now (woo funn night ! ) but I have not stopped thinking about the idiotic move I made voting Josh out. Holy shizznat. I think I may be screwed if I make it to the finals. AHHHHHHHhh

- Add other thoughts!!!

I miss my friend, who is a guy. Ugh, he is gone to vist his mom all easter break! .

Fack it, I usually leave ye with something funny or a quote or something, so... tonight I am leaving yall with one of my favorite "post secrets" If you do not know what a post secret is, I suggest you look at them.. Go to my profile on Facebook, then groups, and click on post secrets group.. look at the pics.. i love them.. they are the greatest thing ever. I cry every time I read them ! lol Soo here is two I found last night , that are beautiful. And really applies to life in general.

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[lorii .]

okay.. so they wount show up as pics... anyways.. one of them says :"I am so scared of people finding out how lonely I turely am, that I have shut the world out completely"

and the other one is more related to me, and says:
"sometimes I wish I was the other twin"

awww. boozing it up, sometimes makes you sad.

[lorii .]

Look who's back again . I am just going to continue ranting about how stupid I am.

The more I think about it, the more dicouraged I get. Like if I make it to the finals , I doubt I will get any votes. This just sucks big time. I bet know one thinks I deserve to be here. But I do. No one really has faced as much in this game as me. Like Holy Fucking Roller Coster Ride. I love it though.
The one time I decide to be a fair player, and stick to my word, I get screwed into the next century. The only thing I can hope for is that Ashley will go with an All Girls Alliance. Then Me Her and Steph take the guys out. Everyone says I will not make it to the finals, but I think I will, mainly because everyone thinks Im such a shit player, So they will take me with them.. but w/e. They can think that, because no matter who the hell I make it to the end with, I will fight tooth and nail to win this thing. It will not be the first time I fight to beat someone or thing, I've done it before. Ill do it again with this game.

Overall I still think it was a stupid mistake to take Josh out. But whats done is done. A teacher once told me you don't look back at the past, but fight to get to your future. So yeah. Game on.

[lorii .]

Woo, the game is back on ! Lovee it. SOOO FINALLY A DANG CHALLENGE I AM GOOD AT!
I'd like everyone to take a moment and clap for me. lol I think my chance of winning are good, I stayed on last night, because what the fuck eles are a going at in the night, whereas in the day there is always stuff to do, so WooHoo! lol. Weird. I know.

[lorii .]

OH! P.S - Love love lovee the smiters, maybe if I get low enough, me and Earl will become buddy buddy, and then that will be a vote for me pending I make Finals. I find it quite funny, I just want to know whos at it ! haha

[lorii .]

Heres a convo with Payne. If this doesnt work out, Im a goner ! But, I went down swinging.


LoriiHearn (11:26:30 PM): you still around?
a 17 dollar bill (11:27:28 PM): hey
a 17 dollar bill returned at 11:27:46 PM.
LoriiHearn (11:27:59 PM): whats up
a 17 dollar bill (11:28:08 PM): oh nothing much, how about you?
LoriiHearn (11:28:31 PM): natta thing
LoriiHearn (11:28:49 PM): we gotta talk strategy, seriously.
a 17 dollar bill (11:28:55 PM): oh really? what have you heard?
LoriiHearn (11:29:44 PM): Nothing Serious , but I think its our time to take it to the next level of game play and show why we should be picked for All-Stars..
a 17 dollar bill (11:30:57 PM): intriguing. tell me more
LoriiHearn (11:33:14 PM): in order for me and you to have a shot at winning , we need to break up our little four. Stephanie has already told me she will vote with us. And its true that she will NOT win this game, she got a free ride to merge and would have been voted out tonight only for us saving her.. Im not voting stephaine out tonight.
a 17 dollar bill (11:33:34 PM): and who do you think the target should be?
LoriiHearn (11:33:52 PM): well, i guess me and you can decide that if you want to go along with it.
LoriiHearn (11:34:15 PM): Its time to take a risk Andrew. Or we are going down in history as the most boring players, EVER
a 17 dollar bill (11:34:27 PM): hahaha i can see that
a 17 dollar bill (11:34:30 PM): so its ashley or allan?
LoriiHearn (11:35:27 PM): Im thinking Allan.. he never pissed anyone in that jury off yet.. and I can almost bet he is getting Alicia and Pipers vote
LoriiHearn (11:35:51 PM): but, who would you rather
a 17 dollar bill (11:36:07 PM): i agree. allan is better at challenges and a bigger threat in the finals
LoriiHearn (11:36:27 PM): So are we doing it?
a 17 dollar bill (11:36:41 PM): hahaha wow this is quite unexpected! but yes. i am definitely behind that
LoriiHearn (11:36:52 PM): ahhh , i lovee you.
LoriiHearn (11:36:59 PM): Swear on Tonks for safety haha
a 17 dollar bill (11:37:16 PM): haha i swear on Tonks, my lover
a 17 dollar bill (11:37:24 PM): so you talked to steph about this?
LoriiHearn (11:38:11 PM): yup. She is 100 % with us.
a 17 dollar bill (11:39:21 PM): alright sweet. does she know its allan yet? did she have a preference?
LoriiHearn (11:40:29 PM): nope. She said whoever. Im letting her know now
a 17 dollar bill (11:40:56 PM): alright then
a 17 dollar bill (11:41:00 PM): make sure ashley doesn't find out about this
LoriiHearn (11:41:32 PM): oh i know
LoriiHearn (11:41:33 PM): she wount
a 17 dollar bill (11:42:01 PM): you really think we can beat steph in the finals?
LoriiHearn (11:42:09 PM): 10000000000 %
a 17 dollar bill (11:42:57 PM): alright then. i'm just nervous about the "come from behind, beat all odds" thing
LoriiHearn (11:44:39 PM): not a chance. Sure I never said we had to take her to the finals. . Just to F4.. lol
a 17 dollar bill (11:45:00 PM): hahaha tricky tricky!
LoriiHearn (11:46:08 PM): well, we obviously can.. but w/e. Im voting now, the sooner we vote, the sooner the results are out !
a 17 dollar bill (11:46:25 PM): i'm doing it now too
a 17 dollar bill (11:46:28 PM): hehe we're so devious!
LoriiHearn (11:46:35 PM): I am like sooooooooooooooo excited.
a 17 dollar bill (11:46:49 PM): haha me too. we fucking rock
LoriiHearn (11:51:54 PM): Done? Please dont screw me over
a 17 dollar bill (11:52:16 PM): haha of course not. you and me to the end
LoriiHearn (11:56:34 PM): I wish there was some way you could prove it to me .. well , Steph, because she is kinda freaking out thinking you wount do it
a 17 dollar bill (11:56:49 PM): really?
a 17 dollar bill (11:56:53 PM): i pmed her saying i'm with you guys
LoriiHearn (11:57:02 PM): yeah.
a 17 dollar bill (11:57:06 PM): i mean it benefits us both in the long run
LoriiHearn (11:57:12 PM): totally
LoriiHearn (12:03:29 AM): Im nervous you guys are fucking with me
a 17 dollar bill (12:03:41 AM): me and steph?
LoriiHearn (12:04:15 AM): lol, like I know I cant be voted out, but I dont no, I trust you though
a 17 dollar bill (12:04:57 AM): haha good. and steph really has nothing to lose and everything to gain
a 17 dollar bill (12:04:59 AM): you're good
LoriiHearn (12:10:03 AM): i better be, or I am gonna hunt you down Payne
LoriiHearn (12:10:05 AM):
a 17 dollar bill (12:11:31 AM): haha i would rather lose the game then have you after me
LoriiHearn (12:14:21 AM): yeah , Im nuts like that. lol